Second Anniversary

Two years ago, I stared into your eyes

A backdrop of water and stone to frame our portraits

With family and friends to share in my bliss

I told you that I would never leave, always cherish, and be true

You told me that you were my forever

The knife cut us deep and our essences became one

We danced the night away to our favorite songs

I held you close and swayed with you

Not to the melody, but to the rhythm of our heartbeats

“I was going to drive you home, tonight”

We snuck away to our retreat; a surprise

Spent hours in bed listening, loving, learning

Forgetting the outside world existed

We were all the two of us needed

Misunderstandings led to arguments

This must have been the fuel that fed your hatred

As business trips and late nights at work became more frequent

We both knew what was happening, but only you were willing to accept it

My heart ached as you moved from our marital bed

Seeking refuge and privacy away from me

Yet close enough that I could almost touch you

Almost see you smile –almost feel the betrayal

A year to the day and a world apart

You forgot what this day meant to me -to us

I prepared a meal and readied the champagne

Carefully wrapped your gifts and waited in anticipation

When you arrived you were unimpressed

Almost annoyed by the remembrance

You hardly ate, shrugged at your diamonds and went to your room

I sat alone heartbroken in silence for a spell before retiring to mine

Tension grew and I didn’t know what to do

To calm the storm that was inside of me

The only hint that you ever saw

Was the rain that trickled down my face

Your infidelity became more pronounced

When you came to my bed in the twilight hours

Stirred me from my slumber -inebriated

To tell me how you laid with another man -and it was my fault

Coexistence became almost unbearable

I was grasping for straws

The last night I snuck into your room

To try to soothe the demons with a peace offering

A plan to tell you stories while you were falling asleep

Our favorite past time -it was met with resentment

Ejected from your room that eve

I knew I had lost you to another

Two years had passed since that blissful day

When we swore to live our lives together

Not a night goes by that I don’t think about you

But I know I am the only one -you’ve moved on

I’m left with nightmares, debt, and heartache

You moved into your new life without skipping a beat

I was forgotten, not even a fleeting memory

May the 7th to me, will always be

A time for mourning -imprisoned

You filed months ago, yet won’t let me go

Won’t make it right, I am easily ignored

Tortured daily about thoughts of what may have been

Only now realizing you were never that person

That stared into my eyes and gave me strength

It was all an act for you to gain

I’m trying my best to move forward

To live the life I wanted us to have